SAY IT LOUDER!!
YOU CAN DO IT!!
YOU'RE CAPABLE OF!!
SHOW 'EM WHAT YOU GOT GIRL!!
YOU ARE "THE INDEPENDENT WOMAN WANNA BE"
Intro
And there are thousands more words spinning around her head and it feels like her heart is beating wildly . She said indeed, i let down those words . I don't have enough courage to speak what's inside my mind. I feel like i'm walking in the shadow that no one ever feel my presence. Well sometimes she wonder that this world is too big for her to conquer, because people are nasty,mean,rude,selfish and never think other people's feeling while she's always too afraid to hurt other's people feeling instead of do what she really wants,and she's even has a low self-esteem.Damn! totally stuck in the hell box that she creates by herself.She's only a next door girl who feels less about herself and only follow the river stream. But deep in her heart, she wants to live against the current.
Well yeah she's totally broke in and out , financially and mentally. Blaming herself and hating herself .She's been ups and downs of life hoping that people will understand and stay by her side, well the reality is even the closest person of her life is mean to her. So she chose to pray and let god guide her because she thinks it's better for her than arguing with people who always thought that they're better HA HA HA very funny. I guess this is how god showing her to be closer to him and mentally built for more be independent and strong.
The fact is she's always avoid problem and always letting people walk in front of her and even used her .
Then one day she starts to realize something that she's worth it ! Well actually she judged one of her (well she doesn't know how she described it) "friend" accidentally inside her mind because of been underestimated by her "friend" and actually she's better than her(her friend) more waay better. So like how come someone less capable than you are actually see themselves as a very high worth ? Amazing right ? So she wants to show that she's not a "something'' but "someone" in fact very very capable to do anything.
Then magic thing happens.....
She starts to think in the very right way that she needs to change immediately not completely but surely, step by step. She starts to be more open and be more active to talk to people even still in awkward way. But she's surely start it with her own words. It's from the1st point , Be brave!!
She's more independent now like going somewhere by herself and find her new friends where she belongs , more less sharing new experience. She starts to be kindest than before and more active to say greetings and more active to interact even sometimes leave behind and forgotten , that's totally fine!! It's a life tho . Even butterfly has been through difficult life before . She starts to set new goals ahead, like been busy to "CREATE NEW HER PERFECTLY AND ACCEPT HER IMPERFECTLY''.
LIKE WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? YOU DON'T REALLY KNOW IT YET , IT JUST YOUR OWN MINDSET .
AND ONE DAY YOU FINALLY SAY " I DID IT" AND I SUPPOSED TO DO IT EARLIER.
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