The Sickness of Comparison

 

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In the era when i am no longer comparing myself with others and not listening what others think of me. Comparison is indeed the root of mental issues start with the depression. First you compare, then you want to be someone that you do not even know what they have been through in their life, your heart poisoned by envious. In order not to left behind you'll do anything, manipulative and toxic just to get what you fake temporary lust want.

Around 2 million Indonesian teenagers are suffering mental issues. They see their social media most of the time. Seeing only the surface of everyone's fairytale is a mistake. History will always  start from the deepest ocean burried under the sand. Not knowing the whole story but compare their book pages to another folklore. Sadly the grown man trash talking about the perfect life of their own version. I am sorry sir but that is in your own book. It seemed like you're older but never wiser. I listen and consider your feedback but please do not judge on how i write my own book. Because in every page is blessed steps from the heaven, and the rest we are just figuring out how , accept, and learn. 

That is a real life.

To all older siblings, cousins, parents, uncles, auntie, grandparents. There is no fix definitions of being perfect. Everyone born and bring their destiny. We have our own capacity and situation . Instead teach them manner , kindness and help them find their sparks. Guide them and support them. Teach them how to be strong and independent because the world sometimes can make us feel so small and lonely. Tell them thank you that you already worked so hard, teach them how to be gratitude in life.

Never make them feel smallest, beacause i do feel smallest in every family gatherings i have faced 

The Lonely Orca

Orca yang hidup terkurung dalam sebuah penangkaran cenderung memiliki sirip bengkok. 

Hidup dalam penangkaran ditempat yang kecil, dipaksa melakukan atraksi, diet yang buruk karena hanya makan makanan beku.

Berenang mengitari kolam yang sempit untuk waktu yang lama sampai kau tidak menyadari waktu telah berlalu dan tidak pernah kembali. 

Menipu diri dengan hiburan sesaat untuk melupakan kesedihan. 

Tapi tak pernah menyembuhkan hati dan pikiran. 

Hidup yang menyesakkan dan memuakkan. 

Memimpikan samudera biru yang luas menjadi rumah nya. 

Berenang sendirian di lautan asing pun tak mengapa, kan ku temukan kawanan ku sendiri di sepanjang jalan!

Kesulitan akan aku hadapi asalkan aku bisa hidup bahagia di samudera. 

Bebas.... 

Melakukan yang aku inginkan. Pergi sejauh yang aku inginkan. Hidup bahagia walaupun laut tidak selalu tenang. Walaupun laut tidak sepenuhnya aman. Menjadi predator puncak, bagi Orca liar laut juga berbahaya. Manusia sebagai the top predator juga memburu Paus.

Mereka bilang hidup harus disyukuri, Lihat sisi baiknya. Kesehatan dan hidup bukan kah anugerah? 

Bukan kah diriku hanya seekor Orca yang hidup di penangkaran dimana orang orang menjadi penonton dan juri seakan akan tau yang terbaik. 

Orca kuharap kau bisa terbebas dari kolam kecil itu. 

Do Not Let People Affect You

Dear Me,

 

I am scared of what's been happening lately. I am scared that i am not capable enough to do my job by myself. I am scared to handle more responsible that i cannot do it. I do not want to be a burden or be burdened by others. Do I deserve to accept the award from the company that I work for 3 years? Why am I the chosen one when the fact is I work in a team? My intuition told me this award will be a troublesome. She does not accept that I got the trophy. I feel bad about myself indeed, I feel like I don’t deserve it truly. I was like if you want that trophy that much, take mine then! That was I thinking.

I miserably thinking this for quite a while. She’s really mean, playing victim saying that she’s been working so hard but company doesn’t value her, she said unlike me she doesn’t close with anyone here so she doesn’t have any recommendation, never hang out with other colleagues and executives and because she’s following different religion than most of us here, she felt excluded.

I fell on her spell, believing that I am not good enough.

I believe that I am not worth it.

I believe I should not get it.

I believe there’s no competitiveness in friendship, but it turns out hell no.

Envy is poisonous…. It broke your heart deeply in root.

Hope your mean words would heal your foul heart.

Everyone knows it won’t heal.

It won’t heal.

Been in the same circle twice, called me naïve.

I am glad that I am not the one who’s having bane.

I thank myself that i am still kind yet strong. IDGAF is my new era now, putting on my poker face so they won’t see what’s coming is my new fashion. Red lips and black clothes are my favorite. Killin in silence is my plan. I won’t do anything except pray, so Universe does the works for me, karma is real. Because being good is never gone wrong. And you can’t change about it, you are not naïve. We are just good people that’s all. So when they’re starring their own mean scenarios again and again, just

 

Smile.

  

Twenty Five Twenty One Review Drama

 

Title : Twenty Five Twenty One

tvN, finished

Annyeong chinggu yaaa!! kemarin udah sempet review ulasan on going drama Crazy love sekarang gue mau review 25 21 ..yesss who's excited? Alright i nominated this as the best drama of early 2022...rating as for me 8 dari 1 to 10. with total 16 episodes and aired every Saturday and Sunday on Netflix.

The story is about a high schooler named Na Hee Do (Kim Tae Ri) dia juga seorang atlet anggar berlatar belakang di tahun krismon(krisis moneter). Hampir putus asa meraih mimpi dikarenakan krisis moneter yang terjadi diseluruh belahan dunia ini membuat perekonomian sangat terpuruk. Anggar yang termasuk olah raga mahal inipun terpaksa harus dihentikan di sekolah tempat Hee Do bersekolah, dengan tekad yang kuat demi mencapai cita cita nya dia rela melakukan apapun, saat itu juga dia bertemu dengan Baek Yi Jin seorang pemuda di usia 20 tahun yang harus terpaksa  berhenti kuliah dan bekerja serabutan demi menghidupi dirinya dan sebisa mungkin membantu keluarga nya yang harus berpisah dikarenakan perusahaan milik ayah nya bangkrut dan memiliki banyak hutang, hal ini yang menyebabkan Yi Jin harus berusaha keras untuk menyatukan kembali keluarga nya yang terpisah. 

Pertemuan mereka yang tak terduga ini membuat mereka berteman dekat dan saling mendukung satu sama lain. Memiliki permasalahan masing masing dan menjadi support system disaat terpuruk dan saling menghibur disaat sedih yang membuat mereka jadi pribadi yang kuat. Saat itu Hee do yang sedang berusaha masuk Timnas Korea dan bercita cita menjadi rival Ko Yu Rim(Bona) adalah masa masa yang berat disamping ibunya yang tidak mendukungnya. Di saat itulah Yi Jin yang menjadi support system bagi Hee do dan begitu sebaliknya. Yi Jin yang sempat menghilang beberapa saat karena sempat dikejar kejar oleh orang orang yang merugi akibat perusahaan ayahnya pun kembali ke Seoul untuk mencoba peruntungan nya mendaftar sebagai reporter di UBS, Yi Jin yang saat itu terpuruk menjadi yakin akan dirinya berkat He doo yang selalu menjadi inspirasi bagi dirinya. Dia selalu teringat akan dirinya ketika masih SMA saat bersama Na He Doo. Penuh semangat dan selalu ceria.

Kalo omongin Self love nya He Doo gak usah diragukan lagi guys dia baik dan menghargai teman teman nya and when she's alone she's okay with it and her defense is wow. Totally my kind of heroine laaaahhh

Good story after all pertemanan Na Hee Do dan teman teman SMA nya juga diceritakan sangat baik dan sisi love story, life story nya on point. Saran gue nonton ini ya ikutin alurnya dan trust it. Trurthfully kecewa gak kecewa nonton nya, cuz ekpektasi gue yang memuncak.Karena hidup sometimes gak memihak kita but it's all the best for us. We just have to be brave to make decisions what's the best for us.

Sekian dulu ya ceritanya biar gak terlalu spoiler niatnya pengen kasih sedikit gamabaran cerita nya 25 21... FYI gue baru tau juga guys kenapa ini 25 21 karena ternyata ini dipengaruhi sama kepercayaan all let's called it budaya mereka ya kalo couple yg beda 4 tahun ini bring luck secara bintang dan shio gitu sih perhitungan korea nya ya kalo kita kaya primbon gitu but anyway gue gak percaya begituan sih lol.So overall ya drama ini patut ditonton buat jadiin pelajaraan hidup epic sih atau buat hiburan ditengah penatnya kehidupan. remember you're not alone in this journey. You always have a way to be success like Na Hee Do ir better the succes but in you own version. Keep it up! I know you're capable of doing anything.

The Grass Is Always Greener On The Other Side

Not a very long time ago i had quite a weird experience while working. Well... I am working in service and hospitality which somehow i don't really like it but in many ways i enjoy it. I never open up about it, never want to talk about it either.. i just struggling along the way by my own. It is not that i am not thankful about it, cuz still, i earned money from it. 

Well yeah not so proud and honestly i feel stuck too. So few days ago i was welcoming visitors from one of BUMN company and turned out it's one of their Directors who came to visit. Then i saw a face that i recognized that "the director" who came was my friend's father.  

As you may guess that every important person usually get an easy access on every entry with ' Sok sibuk face on' and walk straight. Well not all of 'em like that but mostly they don't greet at first if it's not us who greet them first. I learned that being nice, polite and attitude is essential.

After i saw him walk by then i remember every Ig post of  her daughter just passing by one by one,  like you read your favorite comics or novel that you have read many times, in fact i did not stalking on her ig lolz. It just how my brain works every sad or scary event that makes me worried it just came up and flow like a Loire river. Every saddest moment of my life that happened long long time ago just showed up. I started seeing her only happy life while i know everyone in this whole wide world is facing their own problem. My thought at time be like wow no wonder her life's is so much easy. Schooling at the best High school like me, Then hearing a rumor about her saying, " gue gak usah kuliah jauh jauh di UPH aja" while i was fucking exhausted mentally and physically looking, testing, praying just to enter an Uni. Then hearing she going to one of the best uni in the world for master degree and really enjoying her time in NYC with her friends like going for vacation, while i was running out of my breath just to chasing my dream to Angers, France living broke ass because i know my family can't afford much more than my living expenses for daily. Getting help to French gov for my dorm allowance to be reduced while she was staying in a nice apartment. Looking for an intern with nice salaries so i could bring my money back to Indonesia. Not going anywhere even did not have a chance to see Eiffel and visit the city of love. While she was back and forth NYC to LA to LV. Landing a nice job as a writer while i have to face the pandemic so i have to stuck in my current job which i don't like. She's now married and have a little happy family while i am still figuring out my own life, depressed, even hating myself like you're sailing with cheap almost broke boat in Loire river watching over the magnificent castle envying the princess life. I guess there are some people who were born with the easy life, their life stages seem so smooth and visually exquisite. That's what i thought when i saw that director face. 

Now on every time i'm feeling down. I do looking into deep in me. I saw the picture of  myself. when i was kid, teen, savoring  moment in the happiest time and little things. It just softens my heart, like can you betray yourself when you're younger just to live unhappy life? no i don't wanna betrayed my younger self who's already suffer enough yet she still fight for her dream, yet still survive yet still smile yet still happy. I just don't wanna ruin the image of my younger me. I just want to make my younger me proud of myself , my present me and my future me. I just want to live my life on my own. 

Some people indeed have privilege, but there are some people who fortunate enough to change their life. Just wishing i would be one of  that, because the feels when you're working on your own and you can buy things now eventho it's cheap, it feels great somehow. You start to learn to value lil things, thankful on everything you received and more appreciate things in life that be given and you work on. So don't you ever dare looking yourself down after you have been working so fucking hard for yourself and maybe for your family. Do not you dare! Shamed on you! She was the one who you can rely on, you can believe, you can love, you can proud of.

SHE IS YOU, NEVER LOST YOURSELF

Review Drakor At The Moment Yuk

    Title : Crazy Love

        KBS , on going drama

Anyeong anyeong ! How’s your life going on? Apakah membosankan karena harus bekerja 9 to 5 or 24 hours a week?  Semangat yaaa setiap orang punya jalan hidup nya masing masing yang kerja kantoran, pengusaha, freelancer, all the same butuh me time yang ter quality ya ga sih? Tapi jangan lupa yg punya mimpi diluar kerjaan bisa lah di luangkan waktunya,sisihkan uangnya untuk mengejar mimpi itu. Jangan berhenti bermimpi yah walaupun kerjaan sekarang ini bukan yang kamu mau. Tetap yakin sama diri sendiri dan percaya takdir dari Allah selalu baik.

Nah Alhamdulilah teruntuk kalian yang sudah memiliki kerjaan saat ini, masih banyak orang orang yang sulit mendapatkan kerjaan diluar sana. Atau untuk kalian yang bekerja di environment toxic, bos toxic, temen kantor toxic. Semangat ya! Pasti setiap orang punya problem yang mereka hadapi masing  masing even mereka on the top of their career. Untuk yang masih ngerasa stuck di career  pun juga semangat. You’re not stuck, take a baby step. Investasiin ke diri kalian,belajar Ilmu ilmu baru lagi . Kalo belum ada spare money untuk ambil kelas, nih gue spoil kelas gratis yg bisa kalian akses di https://www.futurelearn.com/ ini kalo kalian bisa ngerjain sesuai deadline dan jika nilai nya  bagus bisa dapet free Certificate loh, lumayan kan buat nambahanin skill kalian ya. Kalo bisa sih take classes yang bisa kalian terrapin jadi ilmu nya gak sia sia karena akan terus kepake yah.

Oke oke ngomongin kerjaan mulu cape yah hehehehe. Maklum ini blog pengembangan diri jadi kudu share  hal hal positif dan inspiratif ya girls. Yuk langsung aja disini gue mau review sih bukan rekomen karena ini drakor masih on going .. whaatt?? Drakor?? Iya drakor. Apakah mau racunin drakor atau mau buat waktu kurang produktif? Gak gitu juga sih. Ya buat hilangin penat sesaat aja ya jangan keterusan sampe waktu abis. Untuk itu biar kalian ga salah pilih drakor yang gimana gima gue udah pilih nih satu drakor yang menurut gue cukup relate ke gua honestly yah. Siapa tau bisa cukup relate ke kalian juga yah. Entah ini takdir atau apa yah suasini cukup mirip sama suasini gue saat ini tapi karena ini drama yah inget ini drama hehehehe jadi gak se ekstrim itulah dengan yang gua alami saat ini.

Judulnya “Crazy Love” yang main mba Crystal adiknya Jessica SNSD sepenggal pengetahuan dunia per korea an kalo kalian kurang tau. Namanya juga review yah pasti agak spoiler gaksihh??? Jadi drakor keluaran KBS ini tema nya yah dunia perkantoran guys, kalo kalian masih di umur 20 thn an oke sih nih drakor. Bercerita tengtang mba Lee Shin Ah (Crystal) yang bekerja di suatu perusahaan Online Education Platform Bernama Go top which is ini platform is dabes di Korsel kalo di Indo kaya Ruang guru yah. Disitu si mbak nya bekerja jadi Secretary to Mr Noh Go jin  Boss aka CEO nya GO TOP ini nih. Disini diceritain si boss nya bossy abis perfeksionis, gak bisa nerima kesalahan sedikit pun. Gara gara dia banyak banget karyawan nya yang gak kuat kerja sama dia paling lama Cuma 3 bulan. Sadis ya nih bos, duh jangan jahat jahat amat lah bos. Kemudian yaaahh sih Shin Ah ini keterima kerja lah dia di tempat itu dengan niat someday dia bisa jadi salah satu tutor terbaik di Go Top Edu ini, demi mimpinya ini dia rela lah yah nahan semua kelakuan dan perkataan si bos nya ini. Yang bikin kesel nya juga yang lain jadi ikutan bully dia hiiihh esmosi tingkat tinggi.. Yang paling gue kesel liat ini drakor yah dan bakalan jadi pelajaran banget di hidup nih ya. Jangan pernah sekali kali kita merendahkan harga diri orang based on pekerjaan, latar belakang orang itu. Kita di mata Allah semuanya sama setara dan se drajat. Semua layak dihormati. So perlakukan orang dengan hormat kecuali orang itu gak hormatin kita balik mending balik kanan aja sih bye. Okay jadi mba Shin Ah nahan semuanya guys dia stress tiap hari sampe dia sering banget sakit kepala tuh awal mula nya dia stress sampe sakit kepala dan minum obat penghilang sakit kepala terus terusan kan ga baik buat tubuh yaaa… Klimaksnya itu si bos nya dapet undangan jadi speaker di salah satu institusi Pendidikan dan mau share power point nya, ada salah satu karyawan yang responsible buat bikin PPT dan tampilin PPT nya terus dia lupa naro flash disknya dimana dan nyalahin si Mba Shin Ah, yang mengakibatkan Noh Go Jin ini emosi dan marah terus mempermalukan mba Shin Ah di depan umum dengan cara merendahkan mimpi nya Shin Ah kan kesel banget gak sih. Ini nih tipe tipe Bos toxic yang sama sekali gak layak di hormati. Mereka ciri cirinya menuntut dan gak pernah leading and guiding, terus merendahkan diri orang lain dan di mata dia dirinya orang yang paling hebat. Agak esmosi disini yah selain relate pernah juga gue alami. Kaya ga pantes yah seorang atasan memperlakukan karyawan seperti padahal kinerja Shin Ah udah baik banget. Koreksi kinerja sangat baik banget sih dia abis direndahin tetep kerja dong ampe lembur padahal dia abis nangis huhuhuh Shin Ah I feel you deeply. After kejadian ini dia ya gitu minum obat lagi buat ilangin sakit kepalanya yang sering kambuh2 an. Dia udah direminder temen nya untuk check up dan dia akhirnya check up kondisi nya. Ternyata dia kena Tumor otak Glioblastome stadium akhir karena stress yang dia pendam …Wah gokil sih dia bisa setahan itu (pointing myself, tapi amit2 jangan sampe kaya gitu ya Allah) Jadi hal menarik lainnya mulai disini guys. Sisi Shin Ah yang berani keluar wohooooo.. dahlah kalian mending nonton sendiri aja yah. Baru ep 3 sampai hari ini nih. Lesson learned gak ada yang namanya menggapai mimpi itu mudah yah. Ada aja pasti, belum dari diri kita sendiri, belum orang lain yang gak tau apa apa soal values kita, dan orang orang toxic macam bos gue eh bos Shin Ah maksudnya (kebawa peran gue hehehehe) Dan berbuat baik ga bakalan bikin rugi, sharing ilmu juga gak akan pernah bikin kesaing, yakin ini nih buat orang orang yang pelit ilmu diluaran sana, inget rezeki udah diatur sama Yang Maha Kuasa. Berbuat baik gak pernah ngerugiin diri kita. Ilmu yang kita ajarkan dia gunain buat cari nafkah terus jadi ladang pahala kita, belum lagi kita buat networking yang baik. Kalo dia resign keterima di tempat yang lebih baik pasti dia inget kita, pasti di rekomenin kita. Banyak cara sih Allah bantu kita dengan kebaikan kebaikan kecil yang kita kerjakan sehari hari. Kemudian jangan pernah ngerasa stuck kita bukan stuck ataupun gagal walaupun kita udah usaha dan berdoa yah namun keadaan yang buat kita gak bisa apa apa itu adalah waktu dimana kita mempersiapkan diri dimasa depan untuk jadi successful version of us. I do believe that indeed. Jadi formulanya never stop, doa dan berbuat baik selalu.

  

Regards your best friend

Indira.

Wishes for my 26th me

 

 

 

 

Hi! You will be 26^th soon can not believe it! Back days were really hard, weren’t they? There are some days that i was happy for everything and there some days that was scared and sad of. Aren’t the days will be in that same motion forever right? Back and forth, Ups and Downs, dark and bright. I have struggling a lot these days. Shaping my future so you’ll be really cool woman but I actually I already know that we are this cool since we were born. We both were born this way. Remember your old favorite song, Who says by Selena Gomez and Mean by Taylor swift just play ‘em when you sad. Cause we both can just shake it off when we will face mean people. And sing the who says when we’re on fire. I do want to make you happy in our special day. But many things happens. It is not that you are not special. It is because you are special, that everyone still needs you. Why do not we just celebrate it in our heart, and embrace yourself up. Let’s do what you like. Don’t you still have some books to read? Classes to join? Why don’t we just make ourselves busy instead of overthinking? And focus in our happiness in and out. Enjoy the little things is actually the essence of life. Adulting is hard, right? Instead of thinking how hard life could be, let’s embrace your beauty, uniqueness and your skills. Tips number 1
to stay positive is workout… Indeed workout helps me get rid the overthinking. My mind is clear and my body become super light.. Also eating healthy makes my blood runs smoothly. Let’s reduce sugars, too much carbo, eating guilty syndrome, and flour. Remember always you don’t have to feel you’re nothing in front of other people. You’re a problem solver. Remain calm in every situation. Just do not be panic. You know I love you in every inch of you. If they don’t mean for you, than someone elses will.

 

 

Joyeux anniversaire Bebe, Merci bien pour d’etre toi toujours.

Magic Does Exists

Recently ini emang lagi belajar sedikit demi sedikit yang namanya self-love, menghargai diri sendiri, kontrol emosi, enjoy the waves of life, coba gak ikutin standar publik. Iri? Pasti ada ya. Kaya, temen kok udah ini itu, kaya kok gue masih gini gini aja ya? It all started, then I questioning myself too much, malah jatohnya bertubi- tubi dan memojokkan diri ini. Feeling pain in and out, karena semua gak berjalan sesuai rencana dan kehendak yang gua mau. Pandemi yang gak berujung.  Overthinking, anxiety tuh kaya udah makanan sehari hari gitu. Capek dan lelah. Terkadang kalo udah terlalu lelah ujung ujungnya nonton drakor gitu, somehow it cures my heart, biasanya genre nya itu sedih atau comedy. Akhir akhir ini lagi nonton drakor judulnya Hello, Me! Entah kenapa kok relate yah? As far as I know belum pernah sih gua nonton drakor yang ceritanya tuh kaya gini deh. FYI, ini kenapa relate nya? Karena gua tuh suka banget nulis surat untuk dear future me gitu, buat self reminder aja sih to stay positive and bright. Karena udah umur kali ya? Makin lama kaya udah padam gitu semangat diri ini (gua masih muda kok lol) gak se excited dulu. Sekarang tuh bener bener everything counts lah.

So drakor yang gua tonton itu, ini agak spoiler dikit gak apa apa yah. Jadi genre nya comedy ,drama sama fantasy gitu deh. Nama tokoh utamanya adalah Bhan Ha Ni nih si cewek nya. Dia saking udah pesimis dan rendah diri to the max, sampai sampai tuh dia mau mati aja gitu, saking udah lelahnya. Terus yang bikin seru, dia ketemu sama dirinya sendiri waktu dia umur 17 tahun. Yang mana ternyata dulu pas SMA dia anaknya popular banget  di SMA. Yang gua suka tuh nilai nilai kehidupan nya juga ada di sela sela drama ini. Ha ni little version ini ceria banget, well…. dia tuh energetic, percaya diri banget, self- love nya super kece and her positives vibes ini nular dan mengingatkan Kembali ke Ha ni yang sudah dewasa ini, slowly but sure she changes into a positive person gitu…. Kinda remind me gitu. Cuma bedanya dia di datengin langsung sama young version nya dia. Kalo gue ? Ya….itu kebiasaan gua sedari dulu nulis di buku trus nempelin quotes quotes artis yang relate sama gua. So when I’m down, biasanya gua suka baca baca in tulisan. Sampai terkadang gua suka nemu tuh tulisan gua sendiri waktu SMA…. It feels ya kaya ketemu sama diri gua waktu masih SMA, disemangatin dan helps me through the bad days. Senyum senyum sendiri karena pernah se- positif itu gue dimasa lalu dan masa iya gua sekarang gampang nyerah gitu, gampang overthinking, semudah itu anxiety. I want my bright me back. Makanya tulisan, segala poster untuk menunjang atau bisa nyemangatin gua tuh suka gua tempel dilemari buku, di notes gua, di tempat tempat yang kemungkinan bisa gua liat tiap hari gitu kan. Quotes quotes juga suka banget gua kumpulin, iya se rajin nya dan se positif itu gua dulu.

One day belum lama ini which were a bit dark days buat gua, tiba- tiba, eureka! Ya gak se bombastis dan fantastis banget sih kaya ilmuwan yang nemuin sesuatu hal, but for me itu magical moment banget, sangaatt!! I told my circle Rizna temen terdekat gua, yang kalo gua ngobrol sama dia bisa berjam jam dan tiap minggu kudu banget telfonan, kayanya kita lebih so sweet dibandingkan orang orang yang pacaran deh na, asli!

Tiba tiba aja gitu gua baru ngeh lemari baju gua yang tiap hari gua buka in itu pernah gua tempelin quotes nya Albert E. Quotes nya gini “ The person with big dreams is more powerful than one with all the fact “ pas liat atas nya ternyata gue juga pernah tempelin postcard yang gua dapet waktu ikut EHEF Education Fair, itu kira kira pas gua masih duduk di bangku SMA juga deh kalo gak salah. Tulisan nya gini, Studi? Tentu Prancis! Shock? Banget parah, se-kaget itu. Jadi apa yang orang orang bilang gantungkan cita cita mu setinggi langit bukan hal omong kosong belaka. Gua pernah mengalami the darkest day of my life gagal berkali kali ujian SBMPTN di jurusan dan kampus yang gua inginkan. Gua sampe bela bela in pergi ke Jogja waktu itu supaya bisa lebih dekat dengan kampus impian, biar lebih greget aja gitu lebih ke motivasi. Dengan harapan bisa diterima di kampus impian sejuta umat UGM di Jurusan HI. Sejak kecil, jujur mimpi gua tuh bisa keluar negri entah belajar,kerja atau tinggal disana. Makanya gua senekat itu ninggalin my hometown buat mengejar impian gua. Pertama gua pergi ke Pare, kediri untuk ningkatin skill Bahasa inggris gue, kemudian les persiapan SBMPTN di Jogja. Yes I didn’t believe it either karena gua sebenernya orangnya penakut pergi kemana mana sendirian. Naik motor aja sampe sekarang masih takut. Waktu itu bener bener gak ada secuil pun perasaan ragu ataupun takut yang hinggap dihati gua. Jujur semembara itu kobaran api semangat juang gua kalo soal mimpi dan cita cita. Always excited kalo ditanya mau kuliah dimana? Langsung aja gua bilang kalo gak UI ya UGM se songong dan percaya dirinya banget gua itu dulu, kayanya orang orang pada kesel dengernya hahaha but who cares? Karena bagi gua ucapan adalah doa, right? Pernah juga temen kelas gua sendiri responded gua gini, “Gua mah realistis aja”. Jujur,  sakit hati karna yang ngomong itu dari segi kepintaran ya dia diatas gue. But it did not stop me gitu. Terserah yah, mungkin dia mimpinya cetek  kali yah. Gua gak marah cuma kasian aja. Mimpi itu gratis teman teman. Makanya gua paling seneng banget ngedengerin orang orang yang punya cita cita tinggi, pasti bakalan gua dengerin dan pantengin tuh orang, gua petrus(pepet terus) lah istilahnya. Gua tanya tanyain hahahaha korbannya banyak hahaha rata rata sih para senior gue. Many cases gua auto nge fans. Semudah itu sih gua suka sama orang hahahaha. Tenang2 kakak kakak nya cantik cantik kok lol. 

Time passed, resultnya? Gua gagal. Sedih? Banget! The dark ages came into my life, sampet nyalahin Tuhan dan diri sendiri mostly waktu itu. Dah gak punya semangat ngejar impian lagi kala itu. Takut gagal lagi, takut kecewa lagi. I was at my lowest point of my life, kuliah pun juga udah gak mau ambil pusing lagi karena sudah saking lelah nya, swasta aja kalo tes ya paling gitu-gitu doang gak kaya SBMPTN gitu maksudnya. Tapi semua yang Allah bilang tuh bener. Doa itu ada yang langsung dikabulkan, ditunda or you deserve better than that. Sejatinya jalan yang diberikan Allah ke kita itu magical moments, in every step sebenernya cuma kadang kadang gua nya ya yang gak bisa liat keindahan dibalik musibah ataupun keberhasilan lain dari kegagalan demi kegagalan yang gua alami. I was blaming God most of the time which I’m still regretting it until now. Coba aja kalo gua lebih tabah, lebih sabar, lebih menerima keadaan, bisa making other plans, mungkin gua gak bakalan se -sedih dan semenderita itu. Regrets come at the end, always.

Ketakutan akan kegagalan jujur masih menghantui sampai sekarang, self esteem terjun payung. Liat orang bawaan nya minder aja gitu kaya gua adalah orang paling bodoh sedunia padahal gua bukan orang yang bodoh. Latar belakang gua juga bukan lulusan dari sekolah biasa biasa aja kalo boleh di bilang. Makanya notes notes dan quotes yang bisa dibilang gua temuin itu jujur healing banget dan buat gua waras lagi sama keadaan dan kehidupan. Mostly sih bacanya emosional yang mana buat gua makin cinta sama diri ini. Gua ternyata bukan orang gagal seperti yang gua pikirkan selama ini because dreams do come true. Kalo gua ngeh aja sama tulisan post card Campus France. Studi? Tentu Prancis! Kata kata yang bikin gua cukup terenyuh dan merinding..Kaya masa depan gua tuh udah dispoilerin duluan sebenernya sama Allah macam idol idol yang mau comeback hehehehehe. Asli padahal sudah bertahun tahun lewat gua baru ngeh. Ada aja Allah kasih jalan buat ngingetin gua untuk bersyukur dan gak berlarut larut dalam pikiran negative. Tapi kalo udah tau duluan bisa jadi gua bakalan abai, males dan kurang bersyukur kali yah. Oh ya setelah dark ages yang gua lewati, alhamdulilah gua udah pernah ke Phuket, Thailand untuk magang disana trus udah juga nyicipi bangku kuliah di Universite d’Angers, gabung bareng anak anak Erasmus. So doa gua sebenernya dikabulin Allah, Cuma ya ditunda, sama you deserve better than your plan adalah jalan yang gua tempuh. Bahkan sampai saat ini guapun suka lupa ternyata gua anak yang keren… ini nih makanya kudu sayangi diri more & more kalo kata mba twice mah. Makanya gua decide buat build positive habit, positive vibes dan strong mental health which lead me to makin sayang dan cinta sama diri ini yang sebenernya udah keren banget dari dulu. Full of blessings and love from God, parents, family and our friends. Kenapa kita gak bisa kaya gitu, lebih sayang dan lebih peduli sama diri, lebih lembut, lebih bisa menghargai diri ini. Oleh karena itu gua inisiatif banget untuk bikin platform yang mungkin sedikit bisa membantu dan mengobati orang orang yang punya pengalaman yang sama kaya gua, so I make gogirl.vibes, kalian bisa follow di Instagram yaaa….Wishing you nothing but the best, love from yourself.

 

 

 

Have you ever felt in your life that you're the most miserable person in this whole wide world? Have you ever felt like why my life like this? Why their life seems so easy? Have you ever wondered that maybe Allah is not fair about your life? Well, it is true. That is just how the world works. And all that we can do is just blaming our self, our life or even other people and the worst, we are blaming God for giving us a life that full of struggles. But we have forgotten how Allah gives us the essence of life itself and forgotten how's our life is so much better and so fortunate for some people. I hate listening to people complain about their life, which I think they are so fortunate to even than me, then I realized, Somehow I did the same way just like they did, ironic, isn't it? Our life every single part of it is a blessing. The struggles will just make us stronger, make us learn so we can be worth enough to be the best version of our self in the future. So we can live our best life in the future, we never know that. Do we know what futures hold? The only thing I know is, doing what you can do at the best point in your life will determine your future. Because what you do know will be your view of your future. No wonder a great people have so many histories and stories to tell, they do not proud of what they have achieved. But because they want to show you that you can do that too. They show us how when they fell they rose so many times, even in their successful life. Somehow Allah never made a mistake for designing our life. His blessing scenario is what the best for us.

I was and am still a dreamer. I was born from a middle-class family and still until now. I have been dreaming in my whole life since elementary, to go and live abroad. I always prayed to witness the beauty of the world, how Allah created the world for us, how we have been created in different colour skins, talk different languages, having different seasons and time. Since then I learned English so hard so I can communicate well. The proud feeling of how cool if someone can speak several languages emerged. I want to pursue my education abroad, but it was not an easy thing... many chances I took to get a scholarship or an exchange program, but always failed... I never gave up on my dream. Time passed by I wanted to be a Diplomat. What I knew then was getting to Ivy leagues was my top priority. I have tried many times. I took a gap year to prepare myself for a Uni entrance exam, but I failed again and again... Then I met the lowest point of my life because I did not have another plan. I have never done a B plan for my whole life because everything worked well for me. But then I faced my failure that brought me into dark ages. I was so frustrated with myself and started to blame God. All I did was protesting God. My faith collapsed. I don't know what to do. I was tired, bruised and I got beat up. Yeah, that's what I felt, I just afraid to decide my future, My dad recommended me to go to another school with different major that I have been hating it since first class to 3rd semester. I was arrogant. Because I had gone to very well known High school. Until one day, I stepped my feet into an unknown place where I felt I belonged there. I was so happy beyond my imagination that this is it, The Aha moment came to wake me up. This is what I have been dreaming and asked for so many times... Since then I never questioning or even protesting about how my life continues. I started to dream again, it feels like my wings are started to spread again. I had so many plans in my mind and I determined to pursue my dream. I decided to join a double degree programme. Life is indeed full of surprises. And then here I was in Charles de Gaulle airport waiting for my train to Angers... My beauty life started there, even it was full of struggles. I even couldn't see it...
Here I am now writing my stories to tell you, convince you that everything will be alright. Dreams do truly come true. Everything will be okay, just do your best and let God do the rest.

Low Budget Healthy Lifestyle During Pandemic

Hello Sunshines!!! How are you doing? I hope you're safe and healthy. It's been 5 weeks I'm staying at home and keep productive. What activities do you do during this pandemic? Me, of course, saving the budget is the top priorities. In my case, as I work in Hospitality and services, quite affect the whole in this industry. Everyone stop travelling and work. And I do not have work to do during this pandemic. Maybe some of you lucky enough you can still work, but during this pandemic, you still don't have many things to do right? Alright, let's create a productive routine. Let's get creative! So I want to share you some of my routines here, enjoy!

1. Drink plenty of water

Every morning I started the day by drinking water or you can add slices of lemons into your warm water.. it tastes refreshing, it contains vitamin C that has massive benefits for your skin and as an agent detoxifier. Not only that, but lemon also contains polyphenol that helps you to lose weight. Who doesn't want to get a dozen benefits with the taste that good?

2. Have Breakfast

Never skip your breakfast! For me, breakfast is very essential. You can be energized during the day, and be more productive because you have a lot of energy. For breakfast, you can have high protein or high fibre and vitamins. Me making a simple smoothie or just a toast with scrambled egg, tomatoes and spinach is enough. Simple smoothies that I usually make is Banana, soy milk(i prefer soy milk because almond milk is pricey), add chocolate powder, dates, honey or peanut butter if you feel less sweet and don't forget to add some oats. The banana itself contains natural sugar and natural energy boost, for chocolate powder, is rich with antioxidant and improve your mood, a good thing to start your bright day, don't you think? if you're having a good mood everything will be smooth, right?

3. Snacks
if you're feeling hungry when it's not the lunchtime yet, you can snack. Wait, hold on... In diet, we are not supposed to snack? but wait for, what kind of snack, do you consume? If you want to lose some weight, you can eat fruits instead. Any fruit that you like. I prefer apple tho😉

4. Lunch
Just keep it simple and balance. Enough protein, vitamins, and a lot of fibre. I love to eat bibimbap, you can search it through the internet. A whole bunch of vegetables that I like, such as mushroom, bell peppers, carrots, spinach, sprout beans, poached egg, chicken teriyaki and add some gochujang.. voila you just mix it all up .. look messy but sure it tastes so good. Why I recommend you to make this because I'm a super picky eater. I don't like the taste of veggies and fruits, that's why I need to be more creative to cover up the taste that I don't like. So this Bibimbap is a champion!! yess.

5. Snacks
Yea why not having second snacks? you can have yoghurt, make smoothies, eat apple.... drink your afternoon teas with a low amount of sweet snacks. What a good life.. you will be a half-full before dinner.

6. Workout
For workouts, you totally can do anytime.. well for me I do a workout at 3 or 4 pm and finish an hour later, after that I cleaning up my house. For my workout I do cardio sometimes yoga.. and I do the dance too😋just in case you wanna create a fun ambience and you don't wanna
feel the pressure of workout like I did, dance may help you... It's fun, sweating and burning but you're doing it in swag.

7. Dinner
well dinner for me, is just the same as lunch.. you go eat anything but in less portion than lunch .. because the activity during the night is less than in noon. So keep it in fewer carbs.

So how about your healthy routine?? share some of your tips here by comment below, don't forget to share my post through your social media guys! Hope you like it, see you in my next post! bye 😘

A Note To Myself #3

#3 Fake Friends

Welcome to the real world, or I would say this world is not only for good people. But there are some spaces are made for the jerks. I do not want to blame you my "FAKE FRIEND" but I am so thankful for what you did to me because you made me even stronger. I learned a lesson, that there's not such a thing as precious as I am.

I was naive back then, you truly helped me a lot through everything in my life. You are my mentor in life, you teach me everything.

I do not have many friends, yes I am an introvert. I do not talk too much, I get hurt easily. 
I do not wanna be alone. I have been suffering enough with my problem, my self-esteem was too damn low, I mean it's still happening tho.

For me, there is no such thing as competitiveness in Friendship. What I want is that we win together, chasing the sun together, conquer the world together.. But that doesn't exist. I will always remember my friend. Everything I know I'll share to you. But then I realized you never think about me...  

You brought sunshine to me until I forgot that I have been on rainy days. Running late to class because I was losing my bike key, but you did not leave me alone, insisted to stay. You were so nice. I believed that we would be a good friend and still talk right now, but sadly you blocked me. We shared so many stories about our different culture because you're from Russia and I'm from Indonesia. I felt warm in the coldest days in winter. You understand me, unlike other people who stay out of me because I am a little bit different. I remember you helped me out with my presentation speech.
but why were you so nice? When all you did just to forget me while I don't.

Those days when we're struggling to learn the french language because our dream was going to France together. You gave insight about public transportation in Jakarta, accompany me and be patient about my weakness even it took your time. This because I didn't know about Jakarta area .. I didn't go anywhere because I was afraid to travel alone. I was envy and admired you, although you're younger than me, you're so brave and smart. But I didn't get it until one day you stop talking to me, stop smile or laugh with me. I just, I don't get it until now. I tried everything to talk to you back and smile..... being nice, after all, what you did was just ignoring me. And what so funny about you, at the end of the internship days, when we need to collect our Essay report, you still need me to print out your doc and sent it to our University, because you said that the printer was broken at the place where you did your internship. You texted me for the first time... called me "babe" what?? are you just being nice when you need something? I couldn't ignore her just like she did to me, instead, I helped her because I know if she missed collecting the report she would have failed her Uni. But when we met once again, she ignored me back and not even a single word of thanks out of her mouth or chit chat about how well I was. Well.... bye then .. I can not look your face from my stories or my feed anymore... But at least, I still being me, a good girl and your good friend.
Bye, my dear fake friends.
Thanks for the lessons.
When I'll meet people like you, it'll be easy for me
not hurt that much again.
BYE

A Note To My Self #2

#2Friendship 

/ˈfrendʃɪp/ A relationship between friends.

Friends are passing by like cloud every time, they have some kinda era in your life. But that does not mean you have forgotten the time that you have spent together, through the sunny, snowy and rainy days. 

Sometimes we hurt their feelings or vice versa, well that's alright we are just human. That is how friendship teaches us forgiveness without being an egoist.

They remind us when we forget about who we truly are, they are always there when you need a little push to conquer your mountains.

There is no such a thing as " I " instead there will always " WE ", it's all about us, not me.

I have been reading a book called The Things You Can See Only When You Slow Down by Haemin Sunim, and there's part explained relationship including friendship. It says, " The art of maintaining a good relationship can be compared to sitting by a fireplace, if we sit too close for a long time, we may feel hot or even get burned, if we sit too far we can not feel the warmth". 

As for me in friendship is all about always be the one who wants to be treated kindly. But you gotta follow the formula first, how? By treat people the way you wanna be treated.

Be kind when they're not...

Hope you're surrounded by people who only have a true feeling about you.. if you do have please cherish them.

If it does not work well just be kind even more.

From your true friend of yours

Indira Dayanara Kusmala

A Note To Myself

Dear future me,                                             

Please do not be so hard on yourself, because life is already hard enough. Please be gentle on yourself ! Don't you ever forget that you are you, still a dreamer with passionate heart, mind and soul, without even knowing what future holds. The only thing you know is just to fight by setting your goals until the end.

Have you seen enough my future me? You have grown now, see yourself on the mirror. Indeed, dreams do truly come true. Remember that! you still have the young soul that you had when you were a high schooler. You were like .. talking loudly about your dream and never thought of what people might think of yourself. Even maybe you are now, would think how silly were you or how bulshit that words. But they did. Those words... they happened in your life. Those beautiful words were your prayers and you kept repeating in your mind and mentioned in your prays, moreover mentioned in your family prays. So now, why are you doubting too much about yourself ? Go see yourself! See your old pictures! 

Remember those lovely days you have spent, seen beautiful sunset and crystal clear water while you were singing your favourite song castle on the hill by Ed Sheeran, walking bare feet along the exquisite beach while carried your favourite tote bag that you bought in the night market with your favourite quotes from paper town movie, saying " I'm in love with cities I have never been to and people I have never met".

Life is indeed a roller coaster said Zayn malik, you just gotta enjoy it until the rest of your life. And as for me, life is truly full of surprises, sometimes it gives you a shock therapy that you need when you're not on the right track, but sometimes a whole world is on your side. Just like one of your fave songs came into reality, it says 'I'm on my way. Driving at ninety down those country lanes singing to tiny dancer and I miss the way you make me feel, it's real and we watched the sunset over the castle on the hill" you witnessed a castle, watched the sunset nearby a river, drove through the beautiful countryside in Pierrefitte. 

what else I can prove to you dear future me?  What do I've missed?

You deserve so much love for yourself... You're too back then were doubting about how far you go but it didn't matter, right? you never think you would fail, do you? Even tho it's hard but you have been through it. But now why are you thinking too much the possibilities of you getting fail? Although all dreams do come true, they take time and efforts my dear me! Don't be distracted by anything! Age? It's just the number, it doesn't define who you truly are. Time? everyone has their own time to have their success. Money? your success doesn't count on how much money do you have, but what you have on the inside, that's your value and your core. Education? education can not guarantee your success but it helps you find who you are by learning every day. Just be focus on yourself growth! and be braver like even more!

p.s you're 10 out of 10 even when you forget!

with loves to my future me that have been so wonderful with your fights, you're stronger than you think.
Indira Dayanara kusmala

Low budget make up hacks

Bonjour mes amours!!

Today's post kali ini i'm going to show you some tips and tricks make up . Are you make up addict? Do you want to be MUA? Love to wear make up?  Tapi minim dana aka low budget. This post is the best for you because i will share you some tips and review sedikit soal make up.

So this look aku created dengan ala kadarnya karna mascara aku abis, eyeliner liquid gak punya trus buat contour2 an aku gak punya. Jadi walaupun peralatan make up gak mendukung sama sekali, akupun mengakalinya.

Nih kalo kepo aku pake product apa, ini jujur banget ya guys, karna ini emang yang aku punya sekarang ini.

1. Eyeshadow aku pake Mirabella(produk lokal)

2. Sariayu eyeliner pencil

3. Wardah BB cream

4. Wardah aloe vera gel

5. lipstick wet and wild vamp it up

6. Sephora Blush to go 03 miss spicy

7. Wardah lipbalm

8. Carrefour water face spray

9. Eyebrow pencil(lupa merek, itu beli yg murah kok guys)

10. Kiko Milano highlighter stick

udah itu aja... whattt ?? kok bisa sih?? are you kidding me??

No no no guys wait okay i'll explain shortly okay?

Okay before start, you have to make sure that your face is clean either your hands, second spray your face with water spray(disini aku pake merek Carrefour aku beli di Prancis masih ada Alhamdulilah, tapi evian disana juga murah kok guys dibandingkan di Indo), then wait till dry up trus aku pake wardah aloe vera gel, sumpah ini aku sukaaa banget karna gak lengket dan ringan cocok banget sama kulit aku yg dehydrated to oily gitu jadi gak kering dan ngurangin minyak berlebih, tunggu beberapa saat yah sampe menyerap pake nya gak usah lebay yah soalnya abis ini mau pake foundation. Then aku pake BB cream nya wardah ini juga ku suka karna gak berat banget di kulit aku yg oily yaahh. Untuk menangkis dark circle bagian bawah mata, aku cuma tebelin aja pake foundation. Gak pake concealer2 an karna mahal hiks. Abis itu aku pake eyeshadow as you know yah eyeshadow aku gak mahal dan kurang pigmented trus aku akalin nya pake lip balm dulu sebelum di aplikasikan color shadow yg kamu suka dan hasilnya quite amazing akutuh jadi nyala banget warnanya dan nempel banget di mata jadi mata aku look sparky gituuuu.... Trus eyeliner aku cuma pake yg eyeliner pencil aja kalo mau pake efek liquid tinggal panasin ujung nya trus tunggu kurang lebih 12 detik agak cool down dia baru deh di apply ke mata, jadinyaa kaya pake eyeliner yg liquid gituuu.

Nah untuk alis( juga bisa pake shadow kamu yg warna coklat gelap) sama contour aku pake warna shadow yg coklat juga trus ratain aja ke wajah sama hidung(biar mancung guys hehehe).. Trus jangan lupa pake highlighter di bagian tulang pipi, tulang hidung sama atas bibir sapuin aja pake tangan biar gak too much. Kalo lipstick karna aku usknya warna anti mainstream yah jadi aku beli ini deh, jarang banget dipake asli hahaha karna asliny aku jarang dandan tapi suka dandan gimansih ?? hahahaha kalo wet and wild sih udah matte yah cuma kalo mau ditambah in efek shiny kaya di MUA yg di instagram instagram kan mereka suka pake lipstick lain yg warnanya mengkilat ada sparkle sparkle gitu, nah disini aku siasatin pake eye shadow aku yang warnanya muda dan sparkle2 gitu yg biasanya dipake diujung mata kita bagian dalam... truss waahh asli sih gak perlu sampe pake lipstick ampe berkali kali beda warna , yah kalo kalian mau ikutin kaya MUA2 itu sih tapi low budget tinggal pake eye shadow kalian yg warna match sama lipstick kalian deehhhh , gimanaa?? Gampang kan?? Gampang, murah dan hasilnya beda tipislah sama yg pro.. Kalo kalian bilangnya make up gua masih basic yah emang karna gua gak jago2 amat yah dan gak suka terlalu fake banget bukan wajah gua, jadi orang gak kenal kita gitu yaahh kan ?? Ohhh yaa maaf maaf kelupaan, aku pake lipbalm ato petroleum jelly buat pengganti mascara guys. Et voilaaa gini jadi nya look aku pake minim cosmetic. Ini fotonya no filter sama sekali yah biar rada jelas dan tau hasilnya gimana.. Sekali lagi ini aku puas dengan hasilnya dan hasilnya juga gak fake banget.. Trus maaf yah ini bukan salah cosmetic nya tapi aku yang masih minim skill make up. Follow me, subscribes and give your comments below yaaaahhhh

Merci a tous! Bisous muah muaahhh 

How to survive in France when you're bankrupt af as a student

Bonjour a tous!! Bisous muah muaahh




Glad to be back again after da long journey.. So, here i am back to my penganguran days lol, gue baru aja lulus sidang belom lama ini dan Diplome gue juga udah keluar dari Universite d'Angers yippieeee Alhamdulilah(Louange a Allah, seigneur de l'univers). Bersyukur banget guys diumur yang sudah tua ini yang gua rasa kaya mimpi karna gua masih ngerasa 21tahun , padahal mah 24 y.o this year gitchuu.. Dan bakal lulus tahun ini, yuup gap year setahun dan 5 years study in uni, get 2 degrees. Belum ada pengalaman kerja, takut kerja, tapi pengen banget punya duit and other stuffs that i've been thinking of lately, even i've thought of master..hell yeaaahh my brain can't stop work. Too much plans and cari kerja cukup sulit guys, that's fact guys. Oh yaa sebenernya gua udah balik ke Indonesia cuma mau kasih sedikit cerita aja, sharing pengalaman hidup juga siapa tau ada yang sama dan mau kasih saran2 or support satu sama lain. Atau ada yang mau ke Prancis juga monggo silahkan personally gua seneng bisa bantu walaupun dikit aja, ya semoga jadi kebaikan buat gue dan kemudahan buat kalian semua aamiin ya Rabb..

Sooooo.... ehem ehem masih semangatkan puasanya?? kalo iya alhamdulilah dan apalagi buat orang yang punya mimpi duhh jangan males deh ya untuk deketin Allah nyaaa. In my dictionary, there's not such a thing in this world is imposibble yaa!!! inget! mau lu bilang gak pinter ato lu bilang bukan anak orang kaya ... Ini nih yang pengen banget gua tampol, dari kata kata nya aja udah pesimis banget. Emang nya lu pikir gua lahir bawa emas apa? emang nya duit tinggal metik?? emang pinter dari lahir apa?? hellow lu tuh udah dikasih modal yang banyak sama Allah masihh ajaa ngeluh itu tangan,kaki semua anggota tubuh lu yang lengkap adalah aset terbesar lu cintaaa..ihh greget deh. So use them wisely gitu kan, angkat tangan lu meminta kepada Allah, bekerjalah !! usahalah!!
Emang sih yah pait liat orang lain enak banget punya duit banyak mudah banget hidup nya .. nah uh uh dibalik kemudahan ada kesulitan dan dibalik kesulitan ada kemudahan, Allah itu maha adil ya guys dan dunia ini tempatnya kita hidup untuk di uji jadi mau baik dan buruk itu adalah ujian, tergantung kita menyikapinya. Ada duitnya banyak tapi sekolah males2an dan gak punya mimpi tinggi, atau ada ortunya yang gak ngijinin...Everything itu pasti ada aja masalahnya. Ya cuma gua suka kasian sih sama yang istilah mampu fasilitas gampang dan mudah cuma ya gitulah hidup buat hura hura, bersyukurlah gua dan kalian2 yang otaknya masih waras. Kalo orang miskin kaya gua gak belajar gak usaha gimana masa depan gua cuy?? Susah ya gak mau gua piara lah seumur hidup amit amit ya Allah 😨😭 Kaya juga bukan buat disombongin jugaa mau apee sihh luuuu?? biar apee sih luu pamer sok kaya huh?? Dikasih sama Allah aja belagu istigfar sendiri gua liat manusia tengil begini... Liat tuh orang Jepang liat manner mereka udah diajarin dari kecil baru mereka belajar mati2an, namun kalo gak ada agama yang menyempurnakan sama aja bohong sih, terbukti dengan kasus bunuh diri yang cukup tinggi disana (amit amit elus elus dada).

Oh yaa!! lol tadi cuma intro ajalo guys hehehe😅😅 ini intinya nihh huehehehe. Jadi kalo kalian ke Prancis pake duit hasil kerja keras kalian atau orang tua kalian(ato sampe ngutang2 ke saudara dll) ato anak beasiswa juga butuh nih info beginian . Ini namanya vide grenier alias pasar loak guys,jualan barang bekas yang kalo kata guasih lumayan bagus cyiinnn..branded semua dari Prancis gilss sih. Harga miring banget guys dibandingkan lu pada nge Mall, gua sih anti belanja di Mall buang2 duit mending beli makan lumayan kan 50€ bisa makan sebulan ato lebih. Gua aja beli baju disini guys hehehe 5-15€ udah dapetlah baju. Cuma jangan kebablasan juga yaah kalo lebay mau banyak gaya situ mau belajar ape mau fashion show? lol karna kalo kita kan temporary stay yaahh blom lagi kalo mesti pindah2 untuk magang kan pasti kita tinggal tuh tempat tinggal kita kalo kebanyakan barang2 mau gak mau pasti dibuang kan??? Gak sayang apa tuh ama duit kalian?
nih kalian bisa cek di wesite ini https://vide-greniers.org/ jadi kalian bisa cek update an infonya.. kalo pas lagi di kota kalian kan bisa tau yee gak sih? Nih yah i share some photos there.

Bahkan ada lukisan dan benda benda unik lain nya, mau in style but in budget ya kesini  hehehe

Nih dari jauh yaah saking rame dan panas nya yang terik, tempatnya cukup luas gua sampe kecapean

Tuh kan siap bilang gak bisa gaya dengan low budget?? Yuk dipilih dipilih

ini contoh lainnyaa

Ini di daerah beaucouze kalo gak salah hihihi masih diseputaran kota Angers aja kok guys