Kali ini nemu lagi buku notes yang gue buat saat gue masih SMA, sekitar after graduation tepatnya dan masih usaha banget mengejar impian dan cita cita gue dulu. Jujur langsung nangis banget how come a young girl have that strong ambition and the power of believing herself and so trusting her dream. Jujur teringat lagu Taylor Swift yang baitnya gini, How can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22?
That's exactly how i feel ... i dunno pengen coba mewujudkan satu persatu mimpi gue yang gue tulis sendiri.
Funny karena gue gak tau mau ngapain aja setelah gue punya uang sendiri, ngerasa hidup ya gini gini aja.Padahal young me punya segudang impian yang ingin digapai dan dicoba. Oh ya this post ini sebenarnya yaaa mau nge share instagram gue yang baru yaitu gogirl.vibes yang gue buat baru baru ini... Jadi ter inspirasi dari my own thoughts yang gue tulis sejak gue SMA dan mau ngewujud in ...
kalo kalian bingung mau ngapain aja mungkin bisa buka buka lagi diary kalian lagi yang dulu dulu penah kalian tulis.
Ini juga salah satu cara gue untuk curing my inner child, i don't know i hope this works. I had a massive failure once in my life that probably affecting my life up till now. So i just want to show myself my young me that our dreams is actually working and happening even certain essential dream isn't working out but some things like the dot pattern are going there in different way somehow .. Scary and beautiful situation isn't it? So don't you ever feel small about you, feel like you're nothing... look up again your journey ..It was really something isn't it? Magical, beautiful and weird...
We used to designed our own path our own life we wanted to be well prepared and well planned but life is not going like that ... Then i remembered that a reel video of a young person said Oh Allah everything i planned seemed not working out, so please do it for me.. I guess i am just in that phase of life ..
Surrender , surviving and finding meaning and joy in life.
That's it. It's just as simple as that. Trusting Allah, Praying that one day that door would be open as wide as it can for me.
For me, only for me.
Now i just live to find the meaning, joy and make a habit.
Writing down things that i wanna do, skill i wanna learn, make a healthy habit, fighting my bad thoughts, ignoring people opinions, watching series that i love, playing with my cats, traveling as many as i can, saving as much as i can, earned money as much as i can.
Don't force thing to happen in your life because it's exhausting truly