#3 Fake Friends
Welcome to the real world, or I would say this world is not only for good people. But there are some spaces are made for the jerks. I do not want to blame you my "FAKE FRIEND" but I am so thankful for what you did to me because you made me even stronger. I learned a lesson, that there's not such a thing as precious as I am.
I was naive back then, you truly helped me a lot through everything in my life. You are my mentor in life, you teach me everything.
I do not have many friends, yes I am an introvert. I do not talk too much, I get hurt easily.
I do not wanna be alone. I have been suffering enough with my problem, my self-esteem was too damn low, I mean it's still happening tho.
For me, there is no such thing as competitiveness in Friendship. What I want is that we win together, chasing the sun together, conquer the world together.. But that doesn't exist. I will always remember my friend. Everything I know I'll share to you. But then I realized you never think about me...
You brought sunshine to me until I forgot that I have been on rainy days. Running late to class because I was losing my bike key, but you did not leave me alone, insisted to stay. You were so nice. I believed that we would be a good friend and still talk right now, but sadly you blocked me. We shared so many stories about our different culture because you're from Russia and I'm from Indonesia. I felt warm in the coldest days in winter. You understand me, unlike other people who stay out of me because I am a little bit different. I remember you helped me out with my presentation speech.
but why were you so nice? When all you did just to forget me while I don't.
Those days when we're struggling to learn the french language because our dream was going to France together. You gave insight about public transportation in Jakarta, accompany me and be patient about my weakness even it took your time. This because I didn't know about Jakarta area .. I didn't go anywhere because I was afraid to travel alone. I was envy and admired you, although you're younger than me, you're so brave and smart. But I didn't get it until one day you stop talking to me, stop smile or laugh with me. I just, I don't get it until now. I tried everything to talk to you back and smile..... being nice, after all, what you did was just ignoring me. And what so funny about you, at the end of the internship days, when we need to collect our Essay report, you still need me to print out your doc and sent it to our University, because you said that the printer was broken at the place where you did your internship. You texted me for the first time... called me "babe" what?? are you just being nice when you need something? I couldn't ignore her just like she did to me, instead, I helped her because I know if she missed collecting the report she would have failed her Uni. But when we met once again, she ignored me back and not even a single word of thanks out of her mouth or chit chat about how well I was. Well.... bye then .. I can not look your face from my stories or my feed anymore... But at least, I still being me, a good girl and your good friend.
Bye, my dear fake friends.
Thanks for the lessons.
When I'll meet people like you, it'll be easy for me
not hurt that much again.
BYE
I was naive back then, you truly helped me a lot through everything in my life. You are my mentor in life, you teach me everything.
I do not have many friends, yes I am an introvert. I do not talk too much, I get hurt easily.
I do not wanna be alone. I have been suffering enough with my problem, my self-esteem was too damn low, I mean it's still happening tho.
For me, there is no such thing as competitiveness in Friendship. What I want is that we win together, chasing the sun together, conquer the world together.. But that doesn't exist. I will always remember my friend. Everything I know I'll share to you. But then I realized you never think about me...
You brought sunshine to me until I forgot that I have been on rainy days. Running late to class because I was losing my bike key, but you did not leave me alone, insisted to stay. You were so nice. I believed that we would be a good friend and still talk right now, but sadly you blocked me. We shared so many stories about our different culture because you're from Russia and I'm from Indonesia. I felt warm in the coldest days in winter. You understand me, unlike other people who stay out of me because I am a little bit different. I remember you helped me out with my presentation speech.
but why were you so nice? When all you did just to forget me while I don't.
Those days when we're struggling to learn the french language because our dream was going to France together. You gave insight about public transportation in Jakarta, accompany me and be patient about my weakness even it took your time. This because I didn't know about Jakarta area .. I didn't go anywhere because I was afraid to travel alone. I was envy and admired you, although you're younger than me, you're so brave and smart. But I didn't get it until one day you stop talking to me, stop smile or laugh with me. I just, I don't get it until now. I tried everything to talk to you back and smile..... being nice, after all, what you did was just ignoring me. And what so funny about you, at the end of the internship days, when we need to collect our Essay report, you still need me to print out your doc and sent it to our University, because you said that the printer was broken at the place where you did your internship. You texted me for the first time... called me "babe" what?? are you just being nice when you need something? I couldn't ignore her just like she did to me, instead, I helped her because I know if she missed collecting the report she would have failed her Uni. But when we met once again, she ignored me back and not even a single word of thanks out of her mouth or chit chat about how well I was. Well.... bye then .. I can not look your face from my stories or my feed anymore... But at least, I still being me, a good girl and your good friend.
Bye, my dear fake friends.
Thanks for the lessons.
When I'll meet people like you, it'll be easy for me
not hurt that much again.
BYE
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