Have you ever felt in your life that you're the most miserable person in this whole wide world? Have you ever felt like why my life like this? Why their life seems so easy? Have you ever wondered that maybe Allah is not fair about your life? Well, it is true. That is just how the world works. And all that we can do is just blaming our self, our life or even other people and the worst, we are blaming God for giving us a life that full of struggles. But we have forgotten how Allah gives us the essence of life itself and forgotten how's our life is so much better and so fortunate for some people. I hate listening to people complain about their life, which I think they are so fortunate to even than me, then I realized, Somehow I did the same way just like they did, ironic, isn't it? Our life every single part of it is a blessing. The struggles will just make us stronger, make us learn so we can be worth enough to be the best version of our self in the future. So we can live our best life in the future, we never know that. Do we know what futures hold? The only thing I know is, doing what you can do at the best point in your life will determine your future. Because what you do know will be your view of your future. No wonder a great people have so many histories and stories to tell, they do not proud of what they have achieved. But because they want to show you that you can do that too. They show us how when they fell they rose so many times, even in their successful life. Somehow Allah never made a mistake for designing our life. His blessing scenario is what the best for us.

I was and am still a dreamer. I was born from a middle-class family and still until now. I have been dreaming in my whole life since elementary, to go and live abroad. I always prayed to witness the beauty of the world, how Allah created the world for us, how we have been created in different colour skins, talk different languages, having different seasons and time. Since then I learned English so hard so I can communicate well. The proud feeling of how cool if someone can speak several languages emerged. I want to pursue my education abroad, but it was not an easy thing... many chances I took to get a scholarship or an exchange program, but always failed... I never gave up on my dream. Time passed by I wanted to be a Diplomat. What I knew then was getting to Ivy leagues was my top priority. I have tried many times. I took a gap year to prepare myself for a Uni entrance exam, but I failed again and again... Then I met the lowest point of my life because I did not have another plan. I have never done a B plan for my whole life because everything worked well for me. But then I faced my failure that brought me into dark ages. I was so frustrated with myself and started to blame God. All I did was protesting God. My faith collapsed. I don't know what to do. I was tired, bruised and I got beat up. Yeah, that's what I felt, I just afraid to decide my future, My dad recommended me to go to another school with different major that I have been hating it since first class to 3rd semester. I was arrogant. Because I had gone to very well known High school. Until one day, I stepped my feet into an unknown place where I felt I belonged there. I was so happy beyond my imagination that this is it, The Aha moment came to wake me up. This is what I have been dreaming and asked for so many times... Since then I never questioning or even protesting about how my life continues. I started to dream again, it feels like my wings are started to spread again. I had so many plans in my mind and I determined to pursue my dream. I decided to join a double degree programme. Life is indeed full of surprises. And then here I was in Charles de Gaulle airport waiting for my train to Angers... My beauty life started there, even it was full of struggles. I even couldn't see it...
Here I am now writing my stories to tell you, convince you that everything will be alright. Dreams do truly come true. Everything will be okay, just do your best and let God do the rest.

Healthy Banana Chocolate Milkshake On The Go

How's your diet going through this holy Ramadhan month? Mine, since I just started my diet programme and workouts ... I feel quite exhausted because I need to adapt to do cardio without a drink. So I shift cardio to yoga to minimize the thirst. Don't push yourself too much, because toning, weight loss need an endless journey, full of fights against all your toxic inside, such procrastinating, bad diet etc. A healthy body and clear skin not coming just in a day. Those need to fight! So are you ready?

Alright in this post I am going to share one of my fave milkshakes or you can make smoothie too just by adding oats, it's totally up to you. This is super tasty, healthy and affordable. I think if I like it, you will like it too. Because my standard taste quite the same with picky eater kids. Love sweet, chocolate and other tasty food and beverage only.  

Okay, first of all, you need these ingredients to be prepared:

1. Soy milk 

You can make it by yourself, buy it in the nearest mini-market. Here I'm still using liquid soy milk. Because my soy milk powder still on the way here, I ordered it from NASA SKA 72 so affordable and full of good nutrients inside to help me fulfil the nutrition for my body. The nutrient such as the monounsaturated fats in the soy milk helps you decrease intestinal and blood and agent of cholesterol absorption. The phytosterol in the soy performs by blocking the fat function which means can help you burning fat. Not only help you lose your fat but also helps your body produce more energy and increase metabolism with riboflavin and vitamin B12 and many other benefits

 2. Cocoa powder

So who doesn't love cocoa? with tons of benefits such as antioxidant, improve your mood, lowering your blood pressure, reducing the risk of heart attack and stroke, in summary, Cocoa is one of the richest sources of polyphenols, It's especially abundant in flavanols, that have rich antioxidant and anti-inflammatory effects. The taste is also good. I used this Cocoa powder it's simple and cheap for sure.

3. Peanut butter

I use this as a substitute to sugar, it gives more flavour like savoury to the shake. Peanut butter provides a good amount of protein, and other essential vitamin and minerals, such as Magnesium, Potassium and Zinc. As for me, peanut butter is optional. I don't take any protein powder but instead, I take peanut butter.

4. One Banana

Take one banana to complete all the vitamin and minerals that help you fully and energized during the day.

How to make it

1. First of all, pour the soy milk 200 ml then add 400 ml of water.

2. A banana.

3. Add a tablespoon of Cocoa powder.

4. Add a tablespoon of Peanut butter, you can add as you wish, depending on you.

6. Blend it up all into your blender.

Et voila!! your Banana chocolate milkshake ready to go. 

You can keep it in your fridge and have it after breaking your fast or an hour before suhoor😍 Don't forget to subscribe, follow and share my post on your social media. Bye and many thanks to you!

Healthy Cheap Meal Idea

Hi guys! as I shared my healthy routine but still low budget for you. I have mentioned Bibimbap, right? You guys must have seen this before by watching your favourite K-drama, I made this too inspired by K- drama and it looks so good and super healthy and most important it's easy to make. As you all already know all Koreans have very clear skin not to mention the artists. Okay let's talk about the Actors or Idols later, because they're beyond us, why I said that to you? because they're using expensive skincare, expensive treatment on their skin etc. We are just following their healthy habits in a low budget for sure, that also can lead us to get clear and flawless skin.

So most Koreans eat fruits and veggies.. all their ingredients are following nature. So full of colour and rich in nutrients. They applied the YIN and YANG principle, like 5 colours of the earth elements such as plants, fire, metal, soil and water. They are all connected to nature and represent the colours of the food. So do not be startled on how healthy they are by seeing how beautiful and clear their skin.

Bibim itself means mixed and bap is rice, so basically it's a mixed vegetable or any protein you prefer with cooked rice. So based on the name you gotta mix it all up before eating it. So I am going to share the recipe that I already made and pretty succeed. But the taste might be a bit different from the origin ones.. but it looks almost same and taste better in my opinion, not Indonesians people would love the original taste, so I make it fusion.

 Alright, I explain how to make Bibimbap for one person in my fusion style.

1. You can use any veggies that you like, here I'm using spinach, carrot, cabbage. You can make it by any veggies in your fridge.
2. Wash and cut all the veggies . for the spinach I boil it. The rest I just saute them with sesame oil. To make your veggies taste good, add teriyaki or oyster sauce.
3. Make a poach egg. Why I use poach egg instead of the fried ones? I need to reduce oil in my diet. why not make it in a hard-boiled egg? I have to minimize the budget because the hard-boiled egg takes more time to cook.
4. Crushed 1 garlic and minced it, saute with sesame oil, wait until the aroma comes out, then add a tablespoon of soy sauce and a teaspoon of oyster sauce. This would be your sauce and also a substitute for Gochujang (Korean chilli paste).
4. Prepare your bowl and the rice, it's up to you for the amount of the rice. Then put all your veggies on the top of the rice and your egg in the middle. Add slices of green onion and add the sauce, you can add the slices of chillies as well to add more flavour and touch of spiciness. The last mix it all .. and enjoy the food.

Hope you like my recipe, share some of your recipe ideas.. and most of all affordable and tasty!
Enjoy your Bibimbap! Comment down below if you like it. See you on my next post 😋😊😉

Low Budget Healthy Lifestyle During Pandemic

Hello Sunshines!!! How are you doing? I hope you're safe and healthy. It's been 5 weeks I'm staying at home and keep productive. What activities do you do during this pandemic? Me, of course, saving the budget is the top priorities. In my case, as I work in Hospitality and services, quite affect the whole in this industry. Everyone stop travelling and work. And I do not have work to do during this pandemic. Maybe some of you lucky enough you can still work, but during this pandemic, you still don't have many things to do right? Alright, let's create a productive routine. Let's get creative! So I want to share you some of my routines here, enjoy!

1. Drink plenty of water

Every morning I started the day by drinking water or you can add slices of lemons into your warm water.. it tastes refreshing, it contains vitamin C that has massive benefits for your skin and as an agent detoxifier. Not only that, but lemon also contains polyphenol that helps you to lose weight. Who doesn't want to get a dozen benefits with the taste that good?

2. Have Breakfast

Never skip your breakfast! For me, breakfast is very essential. You can be energized during the day, and be more productive because you have a lot of energy. For breakfast, you can have high protein or high fibre and vitamins. Me making a simple smoothie or just a toast with scrambled egg, tomatoes and spinach is enough. Simple smoothies that I usually make is Banana, soy milk(i prefer soy milk because almond milk is pricey), add chocolate powder, dates, honey or peanut butter if you feel less sweet and don't forget to add some oats. The banana itself contains natural sugar and natural energy boost, for chocolate powder, is rich with antioxidant and improve your mood, a good thing to start your bright day, don't you think? if you're having a good mood everything will be smooth, right?

3. Snacks
if you're feeling hungry when it's not the lunchtime yet, you can snack. Wait, hold on... In diet, we are not supposed to snack? but wait for, what kind of snack, do you consume? If you want to lose some weight, you can eat fruits instead. Any fruit that you like. I prefer apple tho😉

4. Lunch
Just keep it simple and balance. Enough protein, vitamins, and a lot of fibre. I love to eat bibimbap, you can search it through the internet. A whole bunch of vegetables that I like, such as mushroom, bell peppers, carrots, spinach, sprout beans, poached egg, chicken teriyaki and add some gochujang.. voila you just mix it all up .. look messy but sure it tastes so good. Why I recommend you to make this because I'm a super picky eater. I don't like the taste of veggies and fruits, that's why I need to be more creative to cover up the taste that I don't like. So this Bibimbap is a champion!! yess.

5. Snacks
Yea why not having second snacks? you can have yoghurt, make smoothies, eat apple.... drink your afternoon teas with a low amount of sweet snacks. What a good life.. you will be a half-full before dinner.

6. Workout
For workouts, you totally can do anytime.. well for me I do a workout at 3 or 4 pm and finish an hour later, after that I cleaning up my house. For my workout I do cardio sometimes yoga.. and I do the dance too😋just in case you wanna create a fun ambience and you don't wanna
feel the pressure of workout like I did, dance may help you... It's fun, sweating and burning but you're doing it in swag.

7. Dinner
well dinner for me, is just the same as lunch.. you go eat anything but in less portion than lunch .. because the activity during the night is less than in noon. So keep it in fewer carbs.

So how about your healthy routine?? share some of your tips here by comment below, don't forget to share my post through your social media guys! Hope you like it, see you in my next post! bye 😘

A Note To Myself #3

#3 Fake Friends

Welcome to the real world, or I would say this world is not only for good people. But there are some spaces are made for the jerks. I do not want to blame you my "FAKE FRIEND" but I am so thankful for what you did to me because you made me even stronger. I learned a lesson, that there's not such a thing as precious as I am.

I was naive back then, you truly helped me a lot through everything in my life. You are my mentor in life, you teach me everything.

I do not have many friends, yes I am an introvert. I do not talk too much, I get hurt easily. 
I do not wanna be alone. I have been suffering enough with my problem, my self-esteem was too damn low, I mean it's still happening tho.

For me, there is no such thing as competitiveness in Friendship. What I want is that we win together, chasing the sun together, conquer the world together.. But that doesn't exist. I will always remember my friend. Everything I know I'll share to you. But then I realized you never think about me...  

You brought sunshine to me until I forgot that I have been on rainy days. Running late to class because I was losing my bike key, but you did not leave me alone, insisted to stay. You were so nice. I believed that we would be a good friend and still talk right now, but sadly you blocked me. We shared so many stories about our different culture because you're from Russia and I'm from Indonesia. I felt warm in the coldest days in winter. You understand me, unlike other people who stay out of me because I am a little bit different. I remember you helped me out with my presentation speech.
but why were you so nice? When all you did just to forget me while I don't.

Those days when we're struggling to learn the french language because our dream was going to France together. You gave insight about public transportation in Jakarta, accompany me and be patient about my weakness even it took your time. This because I didn't know about Jakarta area .. I didn't go anywhere because I was afraid to travel alone. I was envy and admired you, although you're younger than me, you're so brave and smart. But I didn't get it until one day you stop talking to me, stop smile or laugh with me. I just, I don't get it until now. I tried everything to talk to you back and smile..... being nice, after all, what you did was just ignoring me. And what so funny about you, at the end of the internship days, when we need to collect our Essay report, you still need me to print out your doc and sent it to our University, because you said that the printer was broken at the place where you did your internship. You texted me for the first time... called me "babe" what?? are you just being nice when you need something? I couldn't ignore her just like she did to me, instead, I helped her because I know if she missed collecting the report she would have failed her Uni. But when we met once again, she ignored me back and not even a single word of thanks out of her mouth or chit chat about how well I was. Well.... bye then .. I can not look your face from my stories or my feed anymore... But at least, I still being me, a good girl and your good friend.
Bye, my dear fake friends.
Thanks for the lessons.
When I'll meet people like you, it'll be easy for me
not hurt that much again.
BYE